And we labor, working with our own hands. Being reviled, we bless; being persecuted, we endure.
I Corinthians 4:12 (NKJV)
Hey everyone!
I know it's been a LONGGG while since I have done an update, but I've finally taken out some time to share what's been going on in my life so far. Where to start...
As some of you might know, I'm currently attending the University of Maryland pursuing a masters in Minority and Urban Education. This transition has (up until recently) been completely Jesus led. Moving all the way from Detroit to Maryland has been a huge leap of faith, and although I am happy and excited for some of the things God is doing in my life, I'm also super worried about the future.
To describe my situation in a nutshell, God led me here, but once I got here my relationship with him waned because I started slacking. Although I am doing well in my classes, my anxiety has kicked up full force due to the fact that I was not talking to Jesus like I once had. At one point, I had a mini-breakdown because I didn't think that I was good enough to finish the program. I have a lot of trouble with reading a large amount of text in a short time frame because it takes me forever to comprehend the material. That stress really took its toll on me and started to effect my physical health.
In my infinite wisdom I decided to try alleviate my loneliness by seeking out potential male suitors online...needless to say, that did not go so well... I will say that God has really done a great work in me in that my preferences for men have DRASTICALLY changed in the last few years. After some really bad situations (some VERY recent...), the #1 priority is now to only date a man loves Jesus and puts Him first! Over the past couple of months, I have really been slacking when it comes to listening to God's instructions, and I have definitely paid the price. I have since shifted my focus back to following the Lord because I am truly lost without Him.
In these next couple of weeks, I will certainly be tested like never before. Midterms are beginning and I am now starting to throw together some of my abstract interests to some how formulate my masters thesis. I still have a long way to go, but I can say that for the first time in a LONG time, I am happy. Although I am stressed out and frustrated with the seemingly endless readings for class, I am in a place right now of sheer happiness. Despite all that I have gone through, God has really been revealing some important things to me. He has shown me that I have some very supportive friends that I love dearly. No matter what I am going through, I am grateful that I have so many God-fearing women praying for me and ministering to me (thanks ladies!!). I am truly blessed to have them in my life!
For the most part, I am really enjoying Maryland, despite the fact that there are cops EVERYWHERE and they seem to be gunning for the girl with the Michigan license plate (still need to switch over my registration). I am still a little homesick, but things are getting a lot better.
Before I go, there are some things that I would love for you all to join me in prayer for:
- Jesus-led Masters degree pursuit
- Spiritual & physical health
- Celibacy
- Finding a spirit-led church home
I hope to update you all soon with a praise report!
I love y'all for free,
nNb :)
